Fast forwarding Life...

It always seemed to me that life is an slow motion picture, moving so slowly that I had to stop and wait for it. Most of the time, I've been watching life happen from my seat at the audience. And people always seemed to be something you can really watch like their in a play. All characters, unlike one another, but possible to gather in groups. Studying people is my favorite hobby.
Living like that was easy until now. But I thing my mind is playing tricks on me. My head hurts... and my thoughts, I can't trust them. I'm talking to myself, worried about this girl I like, feeling lonely, and at the same time, apparently gave up on her. There's other girl around, a great one...but no one seems to fill the blank.
Wish I could just fast forward life a little, to make this weirdness pass.